I have stumbled across this thing called Formspring in which you may ask me all sorts of weird-ass questions, anonymously if you wish.  Anyone?

Click here if you want to ask me weird shit.  And comment here if you have one of these accounts and want me to grill you likewise.

I broke my wrist – just a little greenstick fracture, the kind that barely needs a cast – when I was 2 or 3 years old.  I don't particularly remember the accident itself, though I have a clear memory of the minutes leading up to it, and of the hospital plastering room afterwards, but my body remembers it.  I'm almost thirty years past that little minor fracture and to this day, when I'm upset, I feel it in the base of my throat as everyone else describes, but also as a painful random pulse of pain spiking up into my right thumb and down the side of my radius. 

I even associate the feeling with a sort of shameful self-pity, probably because I cried and whined a lot (too much, my parents say) as a little girl and was usually told that I was making a fuss over nothing.

[As an interesting aside, the same thing happened, I'm told, when I broke my wrist initially.  I fell off a piece of playground equipment, landed on my wrist, and wailed and carried on for minutes afterwards.  My older brother and I were in a summer play group, and even when he told the leaders with all sincerity that even his whiny baby sister didn't usually cry this much, the leaders in their wisdom told us both that I was fine and I should stop crying.  Eventually, I guess I did.  It wasn't until hours later, playing out in the back yard, that I took a second tumble – whiny and clumsy, I guess – and hit the same place on my wrist and screamed an unholy scream.  My mom came to take a look and found that my wrist was purple-black around the place it had been fractured.  Vindication!]

I don't think I've ever told anyone that before, but that's where I feel pain physically when I'm hurting emotionally.  Isn't it weird, the places our bodies choose to carry trauma?

Anyone have a weird thing they've never told to anyone before?  Anonymous comments turned on and IP logging off, if anyone wants to share without sharing their identity too.

Because I am cheap poor not a paid/plus DW account holder, I have to make a little request -- I'm doing a flist poll over on LJ where I have polling ability and I'd love to hear from those of you who exclusively read me over here on DW.

The poll is here.  Mostly it has to do with where you prefer to read fic, as I gear up to post the fic monster currently in beta; I aim to please, so I want to make this as accessible to as many peeps as possible!

So I'm working towards posting my long-ass fic and I haven't posted anything quite this monumental for 6 years so I wanted to know what you young hip youthful types think when it comes to posting formats for long fic, and for fic in general.  Results will probably inform my decision of where/how to post said long-ass fic in the near future.  Uh, and the 'in parts' thing -- I do mean parts of a completed fic all at once, not installments -- so I'm not talking about posting a section a day or anything insane like that.  WHO DOES THAT, ANYWAY?  (*glares at young hip youthful self from 6 years ago*)[Poll #1618432]

So, as you may have noticed, I crossposted my new fic (as usual) on DW and LJ but I also disabled LJ comments and redirected to DW for the first time.  I'm super out of the loop on what's "standard practice" for that sort of thing nowadays (if there is any sort of standard practice) but mostly I always like having my comments all in one place.  I feel like there's a better dialogue among commenters that way and it's easier for me to search and find certain comments later on.  That being said, if this move makes you want to tear out your hair and weep or if you have other strong feelings on the subject, please let me know.  I live to serve and all that.  As you can tell by my, oh, ELEVEN MONTHS of fic-writing absence.  Sigh.

I also recently (finally) signed up for and received an AOOO account.  I have done absolutely nothing with it as yet, but may be archiving fic there sometime when I have the energy and time.  In the meantime, all my fic, more or less, can be found on my lovely Wordpress site, here.

...you turn to your flist.

( Cut for pot-related question. )

People out there who use ebook readers for fanfic -- does any of you use an iPhone or iPod touch for this? I've had a couple of different ebook apps on my iPod touch but sadly none of them seems to display ebook files correctly (lack of paragraph breaks, or teeeeeeny text, or weird characters -- the typographical kind -- displayed).

(We don't have the Kindle here in Canada. I know. Sometimes my country is made of lame.)

How are people making their own LJ styles appear on DW? I am all at sea with styles and layers and stuff. (This would be why I haven't changed my LJ layout since, oh, 2006ish.)

ETA: Excellent tutorial here if you are interested. Thanks to several flisters for the linkage, but wicked_socks was the first to come to the rescue!

Does anyone have a hi-res screen cap of David Hewlett's lovely naked faux-mosexual ass from Century Hotel? I have the wee one off david-hewlett.co.uk (below cut) but for fic-related reasons I would like a larger version. It will result in a new mcsmooch fic, I promise!!!

(Not cross-posting to Dreamwidth because I am lazy and most of you are here.)

( Clicky for a wee version of the cap I mean. Or just because you want a good look at DH's lovely bum. )

So I'm watching Battlestar Galactica, which I first checked out over a year ago, but found a little too gritty and unfunny for my taste. I need a little goofiness with my shows, you know?

But anyway, I'm catching up finally, and I'm rediscovering my love for Starbuck. She was the one character that made me keep watching the show. I love her, all her rough edges and toughness and that the writers let her evolve beyond that, but that she stays *Starbuck* all the way through everything: mean and edgy and funny and damaged and self-assured. She's how I picture girl!John: somewhat lesibionic at first glance but actually a big mushy girl underneath it all.

It's making me wonder -- is there any good SGA/BSG crossover fic out there? Particularly anything pairing Starbuck with one the SGA people? I don't even care if it's a friendship or romantic pairing, I'd just love to see Starbuck with the team.

cupidsbow and I are wondering about my last post and whether we have a predisposition to think of characters' relative positions based on left/right brain dominance. So! A highly scientific poll!

I can't post all the data for the questions in the poll itself (because LJ is cool like that) so I'm afraid you'll have to scroll up and down a bit.

( Poll )

Okay, so -- here's the deal:

1) Two and a half years ago (or thereabouts) I bought a shiny new iBook G4. It was my firstest laptop and my firstest Mac and we quickly developed an inappropriate bond of pure love. I did, however, keep my languishing old PC desktop because it has some software I need that doesn't run on Mac OS. However, it is dusty and stanky and I would like to unload it as soon as I can.

2) Because I use this iBook exclusively, for both work and play, it is old beyond its years. The Y key is trying to flee the keyboard entirely, the battery hatch is crotchety and flighty, and lately the iBook's PMU has been an utter arse -- I've had to reset it three times and the newest charming symptom is that the computer won't 'wake up' from sleep. Instead, it goes unresponsive and plays dead, so I have to reboot it over and over. The iBook's hard drive is laughably tiny (60GB -- "THERE ARE IPODS WITH BIGGER HDS!" my brother shouts) and its processor doesn't do a great job of keeping up with everything I'd like it to do. (I don't blame Apple for any of this, mind you -- for a laptop, the iBook is getting up in years and I have used the shit out of this thing and it's generally been marvelous. It's just getting oooold.) Clearly, I needed to shell out for a proper PowerBook in the first place instead of trying to get this little economy model to behave like a workhorse. However, I could barely afford this one at the time, so... *shrug*.

3) I have a wee bit of money saved up from my hectic working autumn season and I'm thinking I can afford a new computer. Keeping in mind that new Macs now can run PC software (and I can thusly actually rid myself of the old PC finally), I'm a bit flummoxed as to what I should do. Should I get a second Mac, a desktop version? For less than a new MacBook Pro (which is the new workhorse laptop) I could get more processor power, a bigger HD, and the new Leopard platform which will let me run my old PC software. Or should I just replace my little iBook? Again, I can't afford a MacBook Pro, so I'd be stuck with another econo model laptop trying to do the duties of a workhorse -- but I'd only have one computer and it'd be simpler to manage files, etc.

(The MacBook Air isn't an option, as it really wouldn't work without a lot of peripheral crap like USB ethernet ports and a USB SuperDrive, and it's too expensive anyway and grr - Apple, could you be ANY MORE ANNOYING WITH YOUR SHINY NEW PRETTIES? Sigh.)

The price difference isn't huge between the two options, only about $50. I can't reasonably expect to have enough money to buy a new laptop to replace the iBook for another year at least, maybe longer, so buying an iMac would mean living with the sad little iBook for a while yet. On the other hand, having a second machine would mean I could take a bit of pressure off the iBook, transferring files and some less-used programs off its beleaguered HD. I also have a USB 500GB external HD I could permanently hook up to the new iMac and have tons of file space to spare there.

[Poll #1135828]

So my poor puppy has kennel cough... at least, I'm pretty sure that's what it is, based on internet research and the fact that my mother's two dogs have the same symptoms. (My dog spent the weekend there while I was away, and started coughing when he came home last night.)

Does anyone on my all-wise flist know anything about kennel cough? Should I call the vet, or take him in, or just watch him? He seems fine in terms of energy and appetite, just bothered by this dry cough that keeps him from playing or running or (hurray!) barking.

[Poll #1073551]

And, wow. When I look at it like that, I'm kind of startled how little I've written. I'm kind of hoping that writing something (relatively) simple like a DVD commentary might kick my ass into gear on one of the approximately four million fic beginnings I have floating on my hard drive.

ETA: Duh. All my fic (including those listed above) can be found under my sga fic tag. Special requests may be entered in the comments, natch.

Since I'm sick as hell today, thought it was time for a little pointless polling.

[Poll #688423]

Yes. *nods*

I'd be writing Barista!Mike, but honestly, today it'd come out like a much less coherent version of the above poll. With snot inserted between sentences.

In your infinite wisdom, who do you think would have played Lex Luthor had (heaven forbid!) Michael Rosenbaum not done so?

Comment, and link to pics if they're handy, too. I think someone who would have less sexual chemistry with TW would be ideal, but then MR has more sexual chemistry with even inanimate objects than any other human, so that's a pretty broad category.

Does anyone know MR's agent's name? I don't need details, just a first name. And if no one knows, I'll take it as a cosmic sign that I should make shit up, as usual.

It's a dead heat between Barista!Mike and Constellation on my "What to finish first?" poll!

I love that Michael Rosenbaum making espresso drinks and leering at Tom Welling is *at least* as important to my flist as that 250-page ridiculous epic that's, yeah, a year old now.

Not that I'm rooting for Constellation, actually. Constellation winning would be, like, having your mom tell you to take your multivitamin. You know you should, but you just wouldn't take it unless your mom said so.

Barista!Mike on the other hand...he's growing a plot and UST like whoa.

Go and vote! I'll wait until this afternoon to start anything.

So I have 5 fic windows open at the moment and I can't seem to concentrate long enough to get any one of them finished. All I do is maximize the window, read, change three words, sigh, and minimize again.

( Help me decide what to finish first )