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Want. To. Write.

  • Mar. 15th, 2006 at 12:15 AM
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I wish I had time to write. I reread bits and pieces of Here Comes the Flood (my last completed RPS fic) over the past 2 hours and was overwhelmed with sadness that I don't seem to have time or energy for writing lately. RL is just too much. I think the biggest part of it is that I feel the need for an entire day off -- just one -- so I can recharge. It seems that those days are always taken up by illness, like my body is seizing its chance to be sick. My last whole non-sick day off was -- *checks calendar* -- February 25. And of course my next *actual* day off is -- *checks calendar again* -- March 24.

I'm tired just thinking about that. Is it just me or is that excessive? *sigh* I love my work, I really do -- at least on days not like this one, which was particularly emotionally trying and stressful. But I just need downtime. More than once a month. Please. I *dream* about two days in a row at this point.

I guess it's bedtime. [/pity party]

I *want* to write, everyone! I do! But -- 27 days between days off. Yeah.

Just know that I miss it lots, and all of you. *hugs flist at large* I'll be back with the creativity as soon as life slows down a little bit.

Comments

[identity profile] sparktastic.livejournal.com wrote:
Mar. 15th, 2006 07:23 am (UTC)
That's wrong. Absolutely wrong. You're entitled to more time off and you should beat whoever until they give you the time.

Burnout is bad, kids.

*squish*
[identity profile] toomuchplor.livejournal.com wrote:
Mar. 15th, 2006 07:28 am (UTC)
I wish I could beat them! The problem is just the fact of having 4 part-time jobs -- it's so hard to keep one day a week clear. I can do it on an occasional basis (hence the once-a-month day off) but every single week? It's just impossible! The dumb thing is that it's not as though I have masses of work every single day, like you (*pets*) -- it's not the amount of work, though that can be staggering -- it's the simple fact of having *some* work to get through every day, no matter how much I don't want it. It's tiring.

I don't know how *S* does it. He doesn't even take the one day off per month.
[identity profile] droolfangrrl.livejournal.com wrote:
Mar. 15th, 2006 08:22 am (UTC)
Hurump!

*Baps you gently*

Thou shalt not sweat it!
[identity profile] suzvoy.livejournal.com wrote:
Mar. 15th, 2006 08:32 am (UTC)
I seriously know how you feel. *pets*
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[personal profile] digitalwave wrote:
Mar. 15th, 2006 08:35 am (UTC)
Sweetie, if you get the chance, rest. The writing will come easier if you're recharged when you try to do it.

*hugs*
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[identity profile] disprove.livejournal.com wrote:
Mar. 15th, 2006 08:49 am (UTC)
Aw man, that's rough. Hope it gets better for you soon.
[identity profile] meret.livejournal.com wrote:
Mar. 15th, 2006 10:26 am (UTC)
*hugs*
[identity profile] krichira.livejournal.com wrote:
Mar. 15th, 2006 11:04 am (UTC)
*HUGS*
[identity profile] estrella30.livejournal.com wrote:
Mar. 15th, 2006 11:27 am (UTC)
*hugs hugs hugs*

work and real life can be sucky! we know! and dude, we'll be here when you get back, trust me *g*

*kisses*
[identity profile] coloredink.livejournal.com wrote:
Mar. 15th, 2006 11:42 am (UTC)
Only one day off per month?! My God, I would have burned out long ago. I once worked for an entire week, without my usual weekend off, and I never wanted to go through that again. I don't know how you even have the energy to post to LJ about being burned out!

**pets**
[identity profile] caro-di-tutti.livejournal.com wrote:
Mar. 15th, 2006 01:30 pm (UTC)
you should take better care of yourself
Some times RL sucks donkey ass.

I can't wait for what ever you write next but the fact is you have to take care of your self. Don't go burning yourself out.(i am selfish, if you burn out where will the good stories come from?WEG)

But really you should totally have a rest, do something fun and stupid which totally wastes a day. personally an amusement park is my weapon of choice. really time to yourself is important, not just work!
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[personal profile] beet wrote:
Mar. 15th, 2006 02:08 pm (UTC)
Blech.

I just had a meeting with my advisor about this issue - I, too am feeling burnt out in a not healthy, is this really going to be my life, I love my work, but I'm not sure I love it so much I want to give up my freetime -kind of way.

She did acknowledge that I'll be working every day of my life, but that right now it's really bad and normally it's just a few hours. Maybe you're at a shitty point, too?

I'm trying to readjust my expectations so I'm excited for almost whole days off. :/

Feel better, hon. ((tighthugs))
[identity profile] astrea9562.livejournal.com wrote:
Mar. 15th, 2006 03:12 pm (UTC)
{{HUGS!}}
I so know the feeling! I'm grateful beyond belief for the work I have. But it's killing me. The weekend bookkeeping gig, the toy shows (selling) - when the season restarts (which is soon, yay!) are great. But the slave labor of the dollar chain store I assistant manage at? To use a friend's words, the place is batshit insane! I'm exhausted all the time, fighting a cold right now and can't take time off.

But, I am interviewing a LOT to get more of my normal work, bookkeeping, administration, office management, etc., so that I can leave the chain store ASAP.

I look at it this way. It's temporary. I'm still grateful to be working. I just would like to have more than meeting my expenses with my roommate. *g* I'd, gee, I don't know, like to save money again! *tired sigh along with you*

So, I get the part-time jobs adding up to no time off. I know you have do it right now for the money and in the middle of that is the lovely, heavenly music and the kids singing it to keep you somewhat sane.

It won't be like this forever, honest. Just hang in there. Yeah, I want more story. You're part of what keeps me sane too. *VBG* But, you seriously need rest. The stories witll always wait and so will I. I told you a long time ago that I wasn't here just for the fic and I meant it. *kisses your tired cheek*

I take it you keep a day planner and/or calender on you full-time? You gotta cut a day from someone soon, even if it does mean one less day of pay.

Paying yourself with a day of rest is more important right now, truly.

BTW - thanks for re-adding me on this LJ too. *hugs you again just 'cause!* ;)

And? I think you may still have more energy than me. You know why? You actually have the energy *and* the concentration to post! That is gone with me and ever so slightly annoying my very loving roomie. *waves at Dolimir*

So, go rest, before this energy does not get a recharge period.

{{{{hugstight!}}}}
[identity profile] geneli4.livejournal.com wrote:
Mar. 15th, 2006 03:15 pm (UTC)
*squeezes you*
[identity profile] black-siren.livejournal.com wrote:
Mar. 15th, 2006 05:03 pm (UTC)
*HUGS* Awww. How is the end of April looking for you? I don't want to be annoying you when you're trying to get ready for a tour.
[identity profile] toomuchplor.livejournal.com wrote:
Mar. 15th, 2006 05:07 pm (UTC)
I will e-mail you about this, k? *hugs*
[identity profile] elleesttrois.livejournal.com wrote:
Mar. 16th, 2006 01:13 am (UTC)
*Hugs!*
Hang in there, dolce.
[identity profile] chimosa.livejournal.com wrote:
Apr. 12th, 2006 10:47 pm (UTC)
Hey- just wanted to drop a comment and say I miss you and your posts. I know you're busy but I hope it's good busy and not sucky busy. Come back soon!

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