I wish I had time to write. I reread bits and pieces of Here Comes the Flood (my last completed RPS fic) over the past 2 hours and was overwhelmed with sadness that I don't seem to have time or energy for writing lately. RL is just too much. I think the biggest part of it is that I feel the need for an entire day off -- just one -- so I can recharge. It seems that those days are always taken up by illness, like my body is seizing its chance to be sick. My last whole non-sick day off was -- *checks calendar* -- February 25. And of course my next *actual* day off is -- *checks calendar again* -- March 24.
I'm tired just thinking about that. Is it just me or is that excessive? *sigh* I love my work, I really do -- at least on days not like this one, which was particularly emotionally trying and stressful. But I just need downtime. More than once a month. Please. I *dream* about two days in a row at this point.
I guess it's bedtime. [/pity party]
I *want* to write, everyone! I do! But -- 27 days between days off. Yeah.
Just know that I miss it lots, and all of you. *hugs flist at large* I'll be back with the creativity as soon as life slows down a little bit.
I'm tired just thinking about that. Is it just me or is that excessive? *sigh* I love my work, I really do -- at least on days not like this one, which was particularly emotionally trying and stressful. But I just need downtime. More than once a month. Please. I *dream* about two days in a row at this point.
I guess it's bedtime. [/pity party]
I *want* to write, everyone! I do! But -- 27 days between days off. Yeah.
Just know that I miss it lots, and all of you. *hugs flist at large* I'll be back with the creativity as soon as life slows down a little bit.
- Mood:
sad

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Burnout is bad, kids.
*squish*
I don't know how *S* does it. He doesn't even take the one day off per month.
*Baps you gently*
Thou shalt not sweat it!
*hugs*
work and real life can be sucky! we know! and dude, we'll be here when you get back, trust me *g*
*kisses*
**pets**
I can't wait for what ever you write next but the fact is you have to take care of your self. Don't go burning yourself out.(i am selfish, if you burn out where will the good stories come from?WEG)
But really you should totally have a rest, do something fun and stupid which totally wastes a day. personally an amusement park is my weapon of choice. really time to yourself is important, not just work!
I just had a meeting with my advisor about this issue - I, too am feeling burnt out in a not healthy, is this really going to be my life, I love my work, but I'm not sure I love it so much I want to give up my freetime -kind of way.
She did acknowledge that I'll be working every day of my life, but that right now it's really bad and normally it's just a few hours. Maybe you're at a shitty point, too?
I'm trying to readjust my expectations so I'm excited for almost whole days off. :/
Feel better, hon. ((tighthugs))
But, I am interviewing a LOT to get more of my normal work, bookkeeping, administration, office management, etc., so that I can leave the chain store ASAP.
I look at it this way. It's temporary. I'm still grateful to be working. I just would like to have more than meeting my expenses with my roommate. *g* I'd, gee, I don't know, like to save money again! *tired sigh along with you*
So, I get the part-time jobs adding up to no time off. I know you have do it right now for the money and in the middle of that is the lovely, heavenly music and the kids singing it to keep you somewhat sane.
It won't be like this forever, honest. Just hang in there. Yeah, I want more story. You're part of what keeps me sane too. *VBG* But, you seriously need rest. The stories witll always wait and so will I. I told you a long time ago that I wasn't here just for the fic and I meant it. *kisses your tired cheek*
I take it you keep a day planner and/or calender on you full-time? You gotta cut a day from someone soon, even if it does mean one less day of pay.
Paying yourself with a day of rest is more important right now, truly.
BTW - thanks for re-adding me on this LJ too. *hugs you again just 'cause!* ;)
And? I think you may still have more energy than me. You know why? You actually have the energy *and* the concentration to post! That is gone with me and ever so slightly annoying my very loving roomie. *waves at Dolimir*
So, go rest, before this energy does not get a recharge period.
{{{{hugstight!}}}}
Hang in there, dolce.